i used to find it scary. i used to shudder & turn away. i used to get nightmares from it.
now, i realize i am that. we are that. we are separate & distant from everyone while a few scrabble to change everything that we are.
isabelle asked why he was being so cruel & i didn't understand. now i do.
it's cruel, to come in & change the one thing that i'm sure of. saying we cannot grow this way when it's the opposite. complete opposite.
this way, we grow with one another. we grow without someone forcing themselves upon us. it's simple & natural & completely fine. your way is harsh & artificial.
& that's my problem, in a way. i can't take any other relationships that seriously because this is everything. why take him or her seriously when i don't need them? i will never get as heartbroken as any of you & i will never need that person as much as life. i will not throw fits & i will not waste away because they are not around.
it's isabelle & theo. & that is everything.
3:21 p.m. - 2005-08-12
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