again. again, again, again i feel chemicals slicing open the back of my throat. now i am unable to sit still unable to not not not not be. i felt electronic noise and pretty girl voices surging through my body i was electrocuted i was shocked i was electrified perfectly still radioactive cancerous and we drove further further further until it was dark dark dark and the trees crowded and chuckled and whispered, 'look at them look look look'.
i thought of the affair of the movie i was due to finish of all the unspoken poems in my head i haven't found the right way to phrase yet and there was music music music beats weaving in out in out in out all around a peacock tapestry of my mind and i wish for a mind recorder
now i am here and i am okay and i am still moving moving and still wanting wanting songs to throw me out of bed and blind me still wanting still wanting still wanting
i am not still i am not calm i am racing my heart is racing i am racing and i keep thinking pink blue black neon netting and is my hair alright and does my butt look good in these jeans and i'm meeting darren tomorrow and this is my favourite this is so fun this would be even better if i was in a club dancing
i wanna go to a show i wanna thrash and jump and mosh and get bruises all over i want so many injuries that it hurts to be alive and i smile because i'm alive and this pain proves it proves it proves it
i want to talk to people i want to see people i want to go on a walk i want to dance dance dance i want something to do not watch a movie not watch a movie can't concentrate on a movie for goodness sakes i want action i want noise i want talking i want people left right and center i want a party
2:51 a.m. - 2005-07-31
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