Jordon drives back with Angie and me to my house. I end up making like, a loaf of bread for french toast. It's six thirty in the morning. I try to nap on the couch and sleep for about an hour and a half. Then I get up and take Tommy to day care.
End up missing my bus on the way back so I call Jordon and ask him to pick me up. Killed time in Savannah and London Drugs. Jacked some purple eyeshadow.
Went back with Jordon to my place, called Kirsten and got her to come over. Jeff came over. Watched a bunch of movies.
Kirsten goes home. Jordon heads off to work and we make plans to hang out again that night after he's off work. Hang around with Angie and Jeff for a while. Watch Jane White is Sick and Twisted.
Then I go and have a shower because we have to walk to Brittany's so Angie can get back her ring and go to her place for more clothes because she's crashing at my house again. I end up having a nervous breakdown in the shower because I could feel myself fading away. Slowly unraveling. Had a relapse and cut myself with a razorblade I found. Grabbed the cordless phone and tried calling Trevor but no one picked up so I called Todd. Eventually, I calmed down and put some clothes on.
Then I was in my depressive/blank mood and I was trying to be upbeat like before so that no one would ask me what was wrong.
Walked to Brittany's with Angie and Jeff. Decided to go with Jeff to pick up his guitar. Said goodbye at the bus stop. Walked back to Brittany's and Angie was gone. Brittany was a bitch and made it seem like Angie didn't want to talk to me. Thanked her for telling me where she was (at home) and started walking home myself. I felt like a nine year old again because I started crying. And it was a really fucking stupid reason for crying.
Got home. Mom started bitching at me / lecturing because Angie called, not knowing where I was. I was in a bad mood. Snapped at her. Tried to get a hold of Angie. Apologized to Mom. Angie came in through the door like, five minutes later. We got everything all sorted out.
Jordon picked us up at around one-ish. Thought we were going to Brenden's to watch American Beauty and listen to Tegan & Sara but Brenden was working. So we went to Jordon's place. Watched Thirteen and then when that was finished, we watched American Beauty. Smoked around five cigarettes after he bought me a pack.
Fell asleep.
10:03 a.m. - 2005-03-24
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